Where I seeth, you shall follow

Patience, ladder of truth set in gold - The reading of the will

Gulliver unlatched his net, the contents piled in front of him. The sparkle blinded his vision. He stepped back and took the oar and fanned his possessions to retrieve the magic scroll. He knelt down and untied the blue ribbon. It smelled of seaweed. Gulliver's heart raced, he knew that the words he was about to read dealt with his failure as a man, fatherless and incapable of thinking and dreaming.

The Dolphin dipped quietly above, she made concentric circles with her beak, passing the water smoothly, then went on her back. What she heard brought tears to her. She remembers. From below, I saw the vessel, it looked weighted, the giant man rose to his feet and arched his back, he then knelt and slammed his fist to the bottom of the vessel, three times

What the Dolphin failed to discover was that the magic scroll contained no writing, it was just a piece of water slogged paper

Gulliver's sperm raced to find a hiding place from its predictors, it knew that time was limited to survive in an environment so different than before. In the mind of the sperm, it calculated what it should do, either swim until it found a place safe or just wait until time ran out.

The magic scroll

(Never fear the unknown, Schiller is never alone, he just tired, ashamed of seeing himself without worth. Before he worries, before he seeks his own, divine may change, two feet, two hands, one soul. Obey, forget love,its not real, its just a dream too old.....)


The centre of my world, light and shadow

Wonder for a while, he thought about the question, if the reasoning was enough to give a proper answer, it was known that an insect produced dwellings stronger than man. He wondered what about the bee's hive, the cones, the hexagon shape which housed the Drones, Feinin was wise not to pressure him any further. He is historically a genius.* What mattered was the key which the great inventor unlocked. Inside, if you are willing to believe, Imhotep captured every specimen of ant. He watched them form a mount, he saw them burrow tunnels. The idea which was not a surprise looked right in the center of a cube, a triangle build over it to protected from the wind storms. So brother, do you think he's a genius? *

* Imhotep stresses of what he believed of himself

A apple so ripe - a light so bright

I know now you are different

Gulliver knew that his sense of direction was left up to the wind, the albino Dolphin corrected this as she carried the anchor beneath the deep waters, and to the graves of time. The net which he cast earlier, Gulliver managed by himself to reel it in. Among the catch were mounts of jewels, the magic scroll and a small nautical shell. Inside the shell, an old shepherd held a lamp over his head, his bleary vision casts a ghostly figure, a powerful present looking over, it was me

The actors: Together with Schiller, Feinin was a man in joy. He disguised as the lives from many times, and the report gave meaning, if only he would released the only lover that cared, his own muse.

I like to know who this muse is? Robert to many is a wary soul, he travels though the centuries drifting through lives. Schiller is his servant, he obeys his commands, and God is above all, is God, no need to explain.

Many times I tell you never expect me, as if I am you, I've tried in the past to get away from you because I feel its terrible not been able to sing. You hurt me today, I could not understand why. He give no reason. I tried to tell him, but fate demanded time further from its truth, the lies spoke from a mouth of greed

Keep still Schiller, adjust your thoughts, I treasure that you still obey this host, he a friend of the mightiest geniuses of all time, Imhotep. This gift you choose, let him laugh too soon, never treason, in picture, diagrams, leaves of gold, pressed on the forehead. I am a priest, my followers are men who served in strength, barrel, rope, sticks. You smile, I'm no fool, its God that loves him so.... Shall I continue my servant?

Next, if you surrender, bring only tea to celebrate the miracle in me. A ladder, pig hoof, gravel and trees. Beauty, serenity, fatherhood, obedience, branches, lions, owls, snakes, ointments, cakes of dates, feathers, offerings.... Love Imhotep * because he is one, the only of three to father a land

A boy watches his father speak, he thinks highly of him, in language and in expression.
A goat is killed. In sacrifice, the head is chopped. The strength in the animal is its whiskers, the teeth is its dreams, the eyes is the devil, the heart is its nature, and the loins is its prized as it protects he who swallows its skin

Schiller stood tall, he looked directly at Imhotep and begins to think, Why this? Why this loyally? I am ashamed, for you godlike Pharaoh is the lamp he sees

Smile, rejoice, compel the muse to sing

Addendum: * During this study, Imhotep acted in a childlike manner stressing his genius over and over, as if he was never fully honoured. He also guarded what he accomplished and was willing to believe the power (Schiller) was indeed a gift from the gods (Pharaohs). The childlike disposition had a similar presence in two other individuals, the greatest genius to that of Amadeus Mozart and a nudge to physicist, Albert Einstein

Alone I stand, alone I fall in the hands of him

Centre, look beyond Schiller's eyes, see beyond life, I calm thee with my sword

God fought over a gem that was carved from fate, it was encrusted with razor sharp thorns crystallized in ice. These where viruses that entered the mind. The confusion it carried was indeed love, a matter, a substance that spoke French, Italian and part Spanish. It latched on to the center frontal lobe, as it felt that love to be nourished, it had to fuse with the living creature, man.

As the boat carried Gulliver, his interest in sex abated, he knelt over the rafters and bowed in agony. A lion is sheep's skin was false, the animal indeed was a fat cow, milking her udder and spraying the substance over her leg. The time felt as if God shunned to escape the event. Love never felt so good...


Bless her mother, teach never to cheat

In the act, the young lover swept him in his arms, he straggled his neck and brought his lips to his, this was of cause a mirror, which he was slapped in the face. Obey me, talk to the Son of God, let him believe his long lasting word, Many of you forget, many of them see, it is in the land of the horizon, that Joseph speaks, Amen.

Gulliver felt relieved, he gained a little strength to set his net. The Dolphin that had centered the vessel appeared once again, she flipped twice and circled the boat. I'm not sure what it meant. Three circles, two small, one big. The Dolphin spoke clearly, she drank and spit the words, To him that go forth, let no man....then barked loudly, free him at his ankle. Gulliver's eyes opened with an intense curiosity, his brain registered what he saw. A cow peeing in a field, a goat mounting a man, and a tree whose branches suffocated itself.

Today ends my fate

Feinin began to tunneled his way up to the sky, it was his choice of words, and that echoed ,Fuck You...Twice that cemented their dreams, and broke the spell of wanton disregard and despise. The tables in an instant, turned.

This time, a horse and carriage approached him. He was ready its seemed to venture from the words of love, Go where your heart beats, tell no one not even your name

The albino Dolphin that centered the vessel, bobbed up and down in honour of a King to be, it knew that over time, the business of preparation had to be achieved. Gulliver fell to the bottom of the vessel and slept.

A lion in a Sheep's skin, brother its living proof ain't it

Marion Crane's last Orange Juice gulp

If it's Citrus Growers Association Orange Juice, I drinking it with ants


Ah catch yuh wit meh juice

From the kitchen...

Marion ah tell yuh ah having friends over. Is long time since we host like dem fete days every weekend. Now people fraid to go out after 3pm. Is you have to serve dem in yuh Best Village dance de belle costume, and mix meh favorite, de best, Co-operative Citrus Growers Association Orange Juice. Is only one tin remain. Remember is plenty tap water to add to make it stretch. Wait, is you singing he tune so,

From the shower…

Listen to the heart, am so alone, honey, brother bring me a phone, Hello, I giving back to you, I changing your ways, if only you believe, am your lover, like your brother...

The shower curtain confrontation...

Marion ah catch yuh wit meh juice tin, dough tell my yuh drorts meh Trinidad Orange? Meh party guest just arrive, is what now, Matouk Mauby to stir and serve Detective Milton Arbogast, Sam Loomis, Sheriff Al Chambers, Tom Cassidy, Caroline and California Charlie. Is big star I invite after I sweat all day making grave, and now ah have to make shovel for one more.

Norman, is I buy dis separate, you must be Psycho putting on yuh mudder old dress and pretending to be a flim star. Yuh looking for man oh what? I see yuh pose on de bookmann naked, looking same way as yuh come pop out yuh mudder hole, and bawl before de doctor slap yuh. Yuh ain't shame?

Marion, I find you farse wit yuh self, you just jealous over I, Yuh better leave some drops so I ca say is Orchard Orange Drink ah serving, and fool dem all.

Addendum: To truly scare an audience, Alfred Hitchcock believed that secrecy over a plot should motive the audience in suspense. Psycho had its moments, Janet Leigh's scream sent chills, I beg to differ

Note: A wife's tail. When diluting a fruit drink, alway add the main ingredient first. Juice + water, never water + juice

Gulliver and the magic Apple

The man climbing his tears

At the time Gulliver entered the hull of the vessel, his tears had dried and turned into rope. On this rope he saw a man climbing up a Coconut palm tree, he noticed that in his palm, he showed Gulliver, the leaves of fortune. These are the words that emerged, Death, Obeah, meh Sue sue tief

These were gifts of his past, as it spoke of the joy and accomplishment in dance. A display he thought he could preach the word of God, Dem sink hoes messing in meh mind, ah go jook dem wit meh steel brush

As the man ascending to the crown of the tree, his arms began to turn hairy. What was it now, a werewolf, a hairy werewolf with a phallus tucked between his thighs? Gulliver looked at the peasant and said in a voice that shook the earth, Mister, please, please, I love your dance, its moves sends me to Paradise, jook, jook, jook, what does it represent in you past? The peasant smiled at the giant, he knew that love's beauty was expressed by one's injustice.

Gulliver, closed the ramp of the vessel, he placed his suitcase at his side and sat facing the land of his birth. To him, it looked as a mass of glitter, Carnival Tuesday, at the Queen's Park stage, Wayne Berkeley's band, Paradise Bo Bo Head. A lifeguard stood on the beach, he motioned his navigation flags, two forward, one left, right, three circle, center.

To the port side, an albino Dolphin appeared, like flipper it quecked, chattering its teeth, spitting water and nudged the vessel away from the shore......Discover who you are really, God's interest begins

All that matters is you my darling

Cornbird man laying the Golden Egg - Keep laying brother

At the moment of glory, Schiller sought his memory to find that love was about to enter his heart. This was in fact true because his gift of survival aided his reason. It meant that love to be accomplished, one must obey its wish.

Gulliver knew that what he saw through the pages meant time had began to spin backwards. He took his protractor and measured the distance. 30 degrees, 40 minutes Westward. Schiller had already began the task of creating his world. A dream which his hoped would save himself from the fire torch. He realized that his mind gave up, and his conscious led the way to determine his on going fate.

Gulliver had with him a large suitcase filled with treasures like candle holders, and age books. The rope tied around his ankle give him no pain as he stretched to lift himself up and upon a vessel berth at sea. As he dragged the suitcase, the owl suddenly flew by and scratched his face with its claws. Gulliver wrenched in agony mortified that the vulture knew that his vanity was indeed his beard. The drops seeping through the scars was really tears encasing a van, a house, a penis, and a telephone call to say that the Great king, the Messiah wanted to speak to you because you dared to tell the world what was truth beyond belief.

Artist understand that dreams exists in their minds. Matter is not able to channel though, but God as we think collectively is broader, eclipsing the universe, its a signal that Friedrich Schiller knows. Love, my dearest me, obey what you bear, tell no one of it

The wand of discovery

Before you depart, where is it? The Golden Egg

Feinin talked over his suffering that left him abandon, alone with no place where he felt safe. He rushed close to a place he remembered, and where Cornbird man once laid the Golden Egg. Feinin searched though the rubble, but could not locate it. Was it hidden or was it in plain sight?

The owl that spoke to Gulliver gently flew in and perched itself on a louver pane. He began to weep as he knew his past had made full circle to a future where dreams were born. Motionlessly, the owl waited until Feinin got the courage to say, no, I'm going to leave this land, and never return until my passing, ash to ash, dust to dust to the river where the Cascarudo spawn

The Golden egg remains a clue, for it resembles you, shaped like a pear spinning counterclockwise. Inside its protected shell, life begins and parts. It is here were dreams turn into reality. The egg represents your entire fortune, if you can locate it, I wonder where it rest.

God, is it true in what he says, can you pretend that life is not that of loneliness, childless and without love? You know me, you know what I like to become.

God's wand strikes at me, I feel it at the base of my toes, it tingles then it works its way in, devouring me whole in completeness. I return as Gulliver. He is crouching over the sand. In his hand, he has a flip book and as he fans the pages, a motion of a arrow appears pierces through a apple. The fruit splits in two then falls to earth. Momentarily it decays, submerging as a root and branching beneath as it retracing the histories of time.

Note: In Trinidad superstition, the Callichthyidae (Armored catfish Cascarudo) beckons that if it is eaten, where ever you are, you will return. Your resting place will be that of your birth

The wand of discovery

Before you departed, where is it? The Golden Egg

Feinin talked over his suffering that left him abandon, alone with no place where he felt safe. He rush close to a place he remembered, and where Cornbird man once laid the Golden Egg. Feinin searched though the rubble, but could not locate it. Was it hidden or was it in plain sight?

The owl that spoke to Gulliver gently flew in and perched itself on a louver pane. He began to weep as he knew his past had made full circle to a future where dreams were born. Motionlessly, the owl waited until Feinin got the courage to say, no, I'm going to leave this land, and never return until my passing, ash to ash, dust to dust.

The Golden egg remains a clue, for it resembles you, shaped like a pear spinning counterclockwise. Inside its protected shell, life begins and parts. It is here were dreams turn into reality. The egg represents your entire fortune, if you can locate it, I wonder where it rest.

God, is it true in what he says, can you pretend that life is not that of loneliness, childless and without love? You know me, you know what I like to become.

God's wand strikes at me, I feel it at the base of my toes, it tingles then it works its way in devouring me whole. I return to Gulliver

What you say huh?

Never Neverland's gate - A father's gift

Gulliver stood over the grounds that the facts the owl said made him feel relentless. Thinking of only how to escape to a place called Never Neverland. The story behind this palace stemmed from a girl who lost her way and found an ingenious friend called Schiller. She sat alone, then prayed that a sign of love would greet her. Its never too late to do the things you dream, as she pondered when the gates to the palace began to close on her face.

The owl flew in quickly and dropped a golden pellet. it was to her a warning over the deed. Let them teach each other over money, greed, my little darling is worth not your soul.

I want some of that money, you can have it, because its all mine to fight and argue...

He's suppose to tell us, Daddy, why did it happen? Why did God do this now? The child fell to her kneels and wept.

Sit up, remember me as I follow in your footsteps, give up, play in the rain, jump in the pool, dance to my tune...You Wanna Be Startin' Something

Love embrace my servants, Today knows him best

You tell me that I kiss you brother

Begin, obey my word of the divine spirit as he speaks through me in warning. Obey him soldiers, forgive your hate over a land, vast. Before I kneel, join him in peace. Love is truth beyond misery. Death is a weapon to teach us well. Alone, challenged by my ghost, I search for answers.

Father - Jew, priesthood
Mother - Peasant, old, lazy
Awaking- At 12, a divine light to my forehead
Teaching - Love, obey commands, roam to teach them better of themselves. (Synagogue) despise
Teaching - Wrote in the sand, words in Hebrew
Followers - 1 plus 3 = 4
Profession - (Shoe) mender
Death - Stoned, hung and displayed in city


Look past his teaching, seek only truth Feinin

Specific characteristics
Skin - brown
Face - broad
Eyes - hazel
Nose - wide
Lips - large
Teeth - white
Chin - long, broad
Specifics - Goatee, strands of hair
Hair - shoulder length
Height - medium stock 5' 5''
Attire - cloth, skin of lamb, branch of rosemary, tableau of clay, paste of stool.
Adornments - Earring right ear only - Stone blue opal, Egypt

Drunk, Gulliver fell flat on the seat of his pants, he looked down at the sand and saw something. A house, a tractor, a tree and a swing. A small girl was sitting on the swing, she looked familiar, like his sister, yet her face was turned away. A man stood at the door, blocked by me, Feinin. It was her father trying to speak over to her. I remember what he said, My............I know you are happy because I see you in my heart. Its time to say farewell, you are independent at last, I am so happy because I never said to you that I loved you truly.

Gulliver went for the tractor and noticed the magic scroll left inside, He tried to retrieve it, but his fingers was too large. A white owl flew in and picked it up with its beak, I'm changing the spell, it hawked, the magic scroll belongs to men whose tongue bleeds of joy, I despise those less in word...

Go away fat asshole, you're just a ghost wasting time on a genius living now, today and forever

My word its living proof God is Death

Feinin walks alone

The sea that bridged the ghost and its shadow began to mirage, as if Jesus was walking across it using his stick to beat off the devil beneath him. He trembled, casting the rod into the sea. It felt good that the Messiah looked scared, shaken over his doubt.

God he commanded, Stop trying to suffocate my life, I am only a follower of you whose wisdom aches. My child, listen to me, the next life you seek will be indeed be joyful. Schiller interrupts, My lord in Heaven, my treasured Saviour, does my life still hurts others? God lashed out, Man, listen, give praised, I have spoken, let us not dwell on hope, he need not judge life as a world painted by whispering greed. Love what miracle, smile, We care nothing over sex, In doubt, ceased time, walk alone, share its warmth, your future is near. Live, laugh, cheat no one. If sex kills, you are not him.

Gulliver, this time reseeded to his wicked ways, he began to drink sherry, wine of duck and juices flavored with gin. He began to look for work in places he dreamed so far away. Stop saying words of despair, read it over Schiller, bring water to quench my thirst. A lion, a sheep, a warrior of time, lost in both worlds.

Time and time again you don't remember me

Feinin holds the magic scroll - inscription for everlasting peace

I sending you a message Schiller, I'm cussing of course because you failed. Like any, I got to see the truth in what you talk. Today like any other I was blessed with remorse over the truth set in lies above me. I'm siting between the gift of giving , but you, brother can't stand it because hate is chasing you away I see.

This devil that sleeps close to me is choosing you as to part me. Schiller wrote in his poem, If jealousy reduces a man from his duty, if comradely can cause petty insults. I choose not.

At dust, Gulliver found himself weak, wrenched with worry. He stood up and sang a verse, Love him not, pink, blue dot, tossing his handkerchief over the yonder. Who was the man waving back at him? Was it a refection?

Help me father, I've changed him to believe you still care. He's talking to the other from yonder, bring the kiss of death so Schiller may join you back.

Daybreak and I feel used

As I stood here, I began to think, what's wrong with is man? Is he a fool masked as a ghost? looked at the the line of infinity, there it is, the beginnings of future

This is the second day where I feel betrayed. I'm in a maze stuck between this life and.....I don't like it anymore. This time, I'm like Gulliver's Travels beached in sand. I've found a treasure chest. Inside there is a scroll, It reads, Remember him oh Lord, he seeth not from his heart. Obey, jealous host, shatter the pane of glass.


Feinin as Gulliver unearths the magic scroll


As I pull myself up from the sand, I am strained by hair strains of that of a witch....Death to you, friend

Death to thoses who fail to see the beauty in me

Masterworks where thou we deed?


Feinin - Mirrors to infinity, pass, present and future

Dear God, I ask of you today to bring some hope as I regret the things I wrote. If only you know the temperance I suffered to achieve the humble words. I sat before you and began to dream, in turn you sent me racing through the field in fright with monsters who tried to wipe me off then kissed me with a mouth thus fowl. Lost, I can never find the place called home were I feel safe and loved, I am once again abandon and alone. You liked it as before what I did, if so, why embarrass me with guilt if there is truth in what I say?

My life has abundance, you can dream of it. Surely he knows what is happening here. I torture you alone, since you torture me. Begin to see hope in all things, test the world with one sayings, "Survival of the fittest"


God, I love not thy weak, seeth me to sweet dreams

"I still don't get it, but he knows nothing but respect from those who think he's alive still, so many finding meaning for their existent. Don't be afraid of this moment it has power beyond ....and that guy knows Jesus, what man on earth can have this in him..."

Pusss, Sweets, Darling, Red man, whahappen yuh fraid woman or what?

Feinin working on her doctorate carrying Johnson's baby power to freshen up and broken bottle for protection

You ain't see Taini La Diablesse passin in dat Hilux and keeping she face straight wit she coki-eye self, is only last night I pull up meh dress for she driver and suck he soft prick, ogeed, as if he working in Klim cheese factory. Meh favorite is dem Maxi Taxi man who does drive meh in style to de off shore lookout. Wit long carpet floor, decoration on de ceiling and ras high bombaclot tune to bull, wit pretty view to watch from de exit window. Ah ask he, where dem school girl hiding?

Yuh passing slow in front by meh and meh powder sisters now since, 007 and Caribbean isle shut down and cause yuh ain't have enough gas money to make a Columbian Marabella. Now dey put big stinking bright light in de swings, chasing we away from dat prime spot.

I tell dem police, judge, doctor, lawyer to wear rubber and dey does sour because dey want to break fresh way in my nunie. I tell dem, you like to keep we top rank in World corruption, murder, kidnap and now you feel I ketching Aids case you carrying. Den, after yuh satisfy yeh want to disrespect meh, as if I have no heart, not knowing yuh mudder make you de same way as yuh try to trow meh out de moving vehicle, when I tell yuh how much yuh own meh including a Normandie or high class Hilton.

Yuh ain't notice i carry bottle to stigmata yuh still to leave permanent mark on yuh face. Fight in Zen my asse, is Wajang yuh wit.

Terms: Working in Klim cheese factory - Smegma

Ali's universal religion

Feinin with his Good Friday prediction of breaking an egg in a Rum drinking, Swiss peanut butter glass

Allyuh jokie when yuh all does put on costume and enter church, mosque, temple and beg hard wit yuh Bible to God and Jesus for thing like Lotto number and wickedness to udders. Den yuh does come to me when yuh faith blank yuh. I know exactly what you want, I see it in yuh eyes and in yuh hands. I have all de Obeah to work on yuh enemy, right now I feel dem working some on meh, but I pass that already wit meh Super Seven.

Yeh bring what I tell yeh, yeh do what I say. Yuh borrow she pantie from de neigbour line. Is after she husband and he corn soup business yuh want? I fresh out of incense, yuh say is dat brand yuh buy, import from India but make in China. Sootar, come kill and pluck dis wild fowl,remember, is a twenty a pound, de meat sweet in a Pilau after it does bussup running insect in meh yard and keep it clean.

It does not matter, I tell yuh to pray, pray for what yuh want, is not me yuh praying too, is yuhself. By de way, is 6 calling in de whe whe, and take a good bush bart to cleanse yuh nasty ways


Obeah, meh ain't beleive in dis religion de whole country does follow

Addendum: The corn soup incident of a pot tipping over and discovering a pair of underwear in the soup's batch.

Terms: Whe Whe, an illegal form of gambling played by men

Tobago I ain't forget you

Feinin as a Tobagonian athlete

We tell dem we different in ways and language. We not weak and lazy over money and oil. Who dem feel we small, we big in we heart of we own. Ah have land, ah have fruit tree bearing, Ah have vegetable garden and still you tink you better. Talk, talk talk and never do, do, do. Stay off meh property. Tanti Mavis, where yuh get de meat to use in dis manish water? Remember is goat race next week

Terms: Manish water is a soup prepared using the testicles of the goat as the base meat

Sharon shows she Birth Papers

Feinin celebrating a Chinese holiday

Sharon leekim fat hong loo chinsue cho teelip pigling Small, I see you and yuh creole husband celebrating Chinee arrival day at Broadway, Independence Square Friday last. Meh maco neighbour tell meh dat yuh trying to make copy like Eric. She say from she window, she hearing bedspring creaking, and you flying up in de air and spinning like copter, den bawling as if yuh want to make headline with five udder in tomorrow paper or borning twin, natural.

Sharon leekim fat hong loo chinsue cho teelip pigling and Gregory Small at Independence Chinee Restaurant

I went to yuh family Chinee grocery cow heel, salt prune, red pepper mango, copybook, laundry, car parts and Chinee cantonese food place and see yuh have import on yuh menu called, all dem new breed, direct. Ah order meh special fry wanton with plenty ketchup and pepper. De lady behind de cage and chain, tell meh, War yo u tink me have ket ch up fac to ry lik Ma touk in de fo wl coup. Ah say to meh self, allyuh raising price as if I is de Prime Minster wife fail to teach meh maths, is five dollar off when I use up all dat ketchup. Belindrix, woman, how many time I tell yuh not to hand meh de pepper sauce, is I suppose to get it meh self. Is fallout yuh looking for when we leave Hong Sing and Bar Restaurant license under Joe Small and Sons or what?

Terms:
Eric referring to Eric Williams's daughter who has Chinese Heritage.
Direct meaning restaurant owners from main land China

Addendum: An example

Check dem big house up dere

1. Rastaman thin or median size, front teeth with some cavities, deep husky voice dressed in white. 2. Red woman or dirty white, straight curly hair, deep blue eyes, thick in size. They both are looking at a house upon a hill. She leans into him, her back nestles on his chest, then he sings to her, a Jamaican reggae lyric in a soft tone

Good day Madam

Feinin as a Syrian cloth peddler

Good day Madam, I want you tell you of my future as I lay my goods for you to see. What I see for my country far and my people near. I promise to myself that all my tears of sweat will flourish into something greater that you would ever expect of me, humble as I am. This, I see a land that belongs to my kin, ruled from seas and shores. Food, drink, transport, media and housing will bear my fruit. Fear is in all of us who lack a vision to succeed.

Madam, if you don't mine my ill manners, Jah, dis ice box cold Stag,Grand Bazaar
Carib cooling meh down as if I playing Golf in meh own course and smoking meh cigar imported from Miami oui

Boys we making a lime

Feinin as Tiara the casher

Why dem French creole and brown skin Syrian feel dey could walk in we establishment barefoot as if dey just off de docks from Barbadoes. If my child ever walk out meh house without slippers and shirt in pants, me and anybody go slap he till he blackout. I does vex when dey lazy children does pass for Government school, but find dem selves attending prestige school like Fatma or Holy Name. Is frending have dem so. When serious football match host, is always dem who have de best seats, and dey dough even watch de game.

Mister, yuh two dollars and five cents short, yuh have anymore bottle?

And dem who feel dey white over in dey Indian, Chinee, Negro and Spanish skin. I remember last when I did meh catering at de Country Club Christmas fete, meh fada once deny to enter, I see dem young off spring wine stinker dan a George Street Jamet Nigger. Who dey feel dey fooling when meh albino niece have whiter skin, bluer eye and natural blond hair. Oh lawd, yet ever see when real white people visit, dem does attached like bamsee toilet paper.

Now yuh have to watch dem Syrian and Chinee businessman tearing down oui heritage and building big story building me ain't never go live in only if dey hire meh as security guard. Ah tell meh sister in Jersey, girle St. James looking as if is Miami ah seeing. Dem have dere inbreed family fix oui, ah just see one just past in a dere black Mercede wit illegal tint.

But when yuh make offspring child wit deformity and hide, you asking meh God why.

Tiara thinks of Anferneeta's future

Feinin as Kara Walker getting her hair done

Shanice, dem people who feel dey big and white paying meh entire fortnight salary to see ah action romance with inclusive, stale hot dog and flat sweet drink. Ah time, I nearly meet meh grandmuddar crossing de Off Shore dodging racing car, maxi and truck. Ah say nah, I supporting meh local dealer on every traffic light corner. I just finish see Harry Potter, Transformers, Micheal Jackson unrelease and dem Nigerian soap opera golden collection.

Meh child train now to know more about sex, violence and crime than anyting in book I ca read. DVD is a blessing oui. Back den, meh muddar use to sun meh to go play hopscotch wit meh neigbour, but pull back when she find out dem is Johovian. She tell meh, Tiara, if you feel you going to give out Watchtower in de square and shame meh, is belt and grater on yeh knee yuh getting.

Times better now, she have plenty faith to choose from. Dat remind meh, yuh ain't borrow meh big Bible? I can't find meh Sue sue hand. Oh Johovian, I ca throw way all dem unless Caribbean Reader collecting dust and termites and play day long DVDs for little Anferneeta, feed she well wit a pack of Holiday’s Corn Curls and Chuby Champaign so have time to do meh hair and nail.

Shanice, read dis new release for meh, dem word too hard, Bar what or bam eh. Colene, here, see if Miss Betsy done mop de floor downstairs and ask she what dis say. Tiara, it go take a 24 hours to relax yuh hair, meh boy Jackson bringing back the Jheri curl style, you is de first, chile. When man see yuh wit dat on de street, is moonwalking yes.

Terms: Sue sue, a form of small member banking

Colgate have meh teet white - Carbolic soap have meh skin clean

Feinin badeing under a stand pipe, Port of Spain

Wha happen, you is a buller watching meh bade in yuh fancy Toyota Hilux. I know I have only trolley to carry cardboard box and fruits at de market, but I ain't sweating to pay for it like you who feel yuh big in oui capital, driving Big Company car or Government vehicle yuh don't own or respect. You spending all yuh money in gym pumping iron all day and yuh still eying meh natural body because I does walk all day to pick up all de Carib bottle after you, when you yuh self does pelt dem out yuh air condition truck.

Lady, dough strain yuh neck, it quail up in meh draws, but it clean with Carbolic Soap. Look you, yuh watching meh with yuh eye straight nearly bounce dat old Datsun 120y in front of yeh. I saving up for Courts Repossess two tub washer so dough mind I does wash meh clothes under de pipe with Breeze and Colgate have meh teet and gold cap white and shinny ever since I stop sucking all dat guava sweet and kaser ball in Primary school.



Is here I staying dees days, meh granny bring me up proper, I love she till she dead. Is dem whatless Junior Sec dat teach meh how to survive and cable and deportee show meh de way "Hello Rosaline, I is away for a fortnight , when I see yuh, I’ll show you what I learn, de mis and jook in de caca"

Coconut oil or Vaseline

We will we will rock you


Feinin going to a San Fernando chutney fete with slick down hair with oil. Which one better? Coconut or Vaseline?

Hello, Pandey, yuh have meh waiting in dis dark cane field, yuh know I does frighten because meh cousin Sisodiya tell meh dey have plenty Soucouyant and I eh want to get suck unless is you sucking on meh neck and between meh nanny. Ah wash it with carbolic soap this time, we ca both have curry mouth staining we skin. Make sure yuh bring back meh fada record and de cassette yeh promise to make. Ah plat meh hair in a bun to fool meh fada, as if I going to night prayers and go bring meh light foundation to over up de love mark. Bring two hot Guinness just incase I ca wash it out by de river..."

Singampalli, daling, ah just rub down meh dashboard with Mayaro coconut oil wit a dab of Vaseline. It go make you feel like country in meh Datsun 120y. I better put some good pressure in de back tire, all ten of meh partners, Biglip, Saltfishmouth, Hen, Japblade, Runninglatrine, Pitchlakebroda and more have to fit in de back.


Oh Shiva, I forget to hide meh treasures in de car, Singampalli yuh lock up de windows tight? Vaseline Petroleum Jelly, Queen the works album among other memorabilia in a Datsun 120y

Terms: Drinking a hot Guinness induces a state of sexual arousal

Horn Food - Rosaline and Jahmaddin

Feinin cooking Libby's Horn Food

Oh gorm, Rosaline, yuh season de pot well wit Maggi, It making feel to meh to brush yuh double. You talk wit yuh gold teet self, I tell yuh to buy Libby's with Montreal smoked Pork flavor Corned Beef. Yuh know George does fret after holding bandit like you all day, night, morning, evening, Christmas and Eid. He want he favourite dish with slice tomato and cucumber like always, tree times a week. It nearly six o'clock now and Four Roads just up de road. Yuh know he have siren horn to pass all dat traffic and sometime he does get drop wit blimp or helicopter when dey have no vehicle.

Yuh done finish yet? Pull up meh pantie nah. Now, ah have to finish cook, spray the bedroom with black disinfectant to kill out yuh smell and untie de twenty rottweiler. Bring dat quail up cabbage yuh tell meh yuh tief in de Central Market last time, and scale de wall close to de neighbour kitchen side, dem so does maco yes. Jahmaddin, Jahmaddin, where de key, where de key to open de Corn Beef?, Oh fada Muslim, why you and Deportee does forgot to pick one wit it.

Terms: In Trinidad sayings, Corn beef is termed as a meal which can be prepared very quickly, making quite apt as to be called Horn Food.

Ah get a free flight home oui

Deportee pertaining to Nationals that are deported. They generally can be distinguished by their thick North American accent and work in places such a gas stations, groceries or left roaming on the streets

Horn: Adultery

Betsy Ross mends her Flag Old Calypso

Ah get so much jook in meh finger, I need Detol fast


Feinin- Hermes - Betsy Ross is mending her Flag which Old Calypso is fraying apart leaving only one colour resembling stained blood red

One evening, La Diablesse and Betsy went to the Queen's Park Savannah to get some beastly cold coconut water from a vendor you wouldn't want to be his wife from the way he handled his cutlass. Diablesse was still upset over her failing looks, and for the third week straight she didn't cause any car wrecks like before when men strained their necks to see her gait.

Across from the street, where the Majestic Seven stood, and fences to protect seven erected RESTORATION IN PROGRESS billboards, Betsy noticed that her beloved flag conceived over the great wars of Independence in !962 was fraying. The symbolic bands of Red, White and Black were separating. This was the home of Mama Dlo's current husband and something had to be done for such a show of degradation and disrespect.

At the stroke of twelve midnight, Ligahoo and Soucouyant members of the Super Seven whose motto reads, "You tink yuh smart, yuh grave dig already, Shadow waiting at yuh home" fell upon the gates of White Hall. Soucouyant put she Bmobile free minutes after 12 pm spell on de sleeping real African guard and wake he quick. Ligahoo, disguise and climb up de flag pole as a manicou, turn and he and he bamsee look down at Soucouyant too, making free calls she self. She calling she neighbour to check in on she skin, if it still hanging.

When de Super Seven arrived by Betsy, Betsy find it strange, why dem two bring she flag in two HiLo bag, is one nation she remember. The rags smelled of oil, gas and Mint printing ink dirty up wit many clawing hands, local and foreign. "Mildred, where de Clorex, meh flag have stubborn stain to remove".


A State of Emergency - Betsy Ross works throughout the night to finish her task to cover her coffin with her beloved flag, then leaves to work on a two hundred year old year old cloth called, Old Glory

Addendum: Betsy Ross 1752 – 1836 of Philadelphia, Pennsylvania, has been credited with assembling the first American flag. I sat in my chair and thought about God, duty and the freedom fighters. The stars left hope for the birth of the confederation of an untied union

Joan Crawford I can't lie anymore - Hangers take the cake

Don't fuck with me fellas



The Hollywood actress Joan Crawford in a supreme Mildred Pierce shoulder pad dress with a coil do- Feinin-Hermes

This women is trouble over here, She's destructive over her fame which has ended. The trouble is her choice of words. Rude, unbred. No one is listening to you at this moment. Tears on your pillow says good, a women afraid to asked. Tell him the truth Schiller, rip that colossal ape.... bring me a chair, tar, tar, tar tis, puke.


Put down de focking phone, I paying all de bills, How many times ah tell yuh, just add tap water. Ah tell yuh meh boyfriend coming over, so yuh better finish ironing meh pleats stiff with de new and improve Honig Moment Starch, s o l u b l e in cold water, get de dictionary and learn de word. How hard is dat...imbecile. It says not cooking, no focking cooking. After yuh press dem, ah go lock yuh up and tape over de hole so yuh ain't go peep like last time.

This is my house meh fada leave behind. Ah tell yuh for a big woman yuh have no focking mind for yuh-self, and always jealous-ing to be like meh. Well it ain't focking happening. Missy, Missy, who tell yuh to touch meh Pepsi, I go rip your ape face off and dis own yuh one of these days.

Of cause it's disturbing - Its Baby Jane for God's sake

Baby Jane - The Great Bette Davis - Feinin-Hermes

I can't bring myself to this that a fatherless person can survive. I hurts me to see this portrait reminding us the joy of parenthood. I'm sure that God has some sort of reason for him, this person is truly gifted knowing things beyond my imagination. God, what power if only I knew love to be like this.

I've always cherished my acting abilities with roles that equaled my male counterpart. These times are different I see. A glimpse into the future is rewarding too. I see things so unforgeable that it makes me want to sing. Bring back MGM, poet.


Baby, baby tired, baby want nip

It ain't Bush Rum I using, is up class Royal Oak Trinidad Rum from meh Venezuelan half cousin Angostura using importing molasses from Guyana and bottles polished in Barbados. Baby Jane does bawl when she tire, meh soursup juice ain't working, but a nip of meh special prize rum does make baby eyes close fast and sweet.

Addendum: This study I confess was disturbing particularly when I assembled the doll / infant. I knew her sex to be a girl. I held the child close to my chest and cradled her. It felt very natural but extremely frighting because it was a shell. I was actually holding newsprint, rags tied in plastic bags

Mabelle's Brillo comparison

Feinin-Hermes as Mabelle

Ca-Sandra, is months now I ain't get a proper brush. All week ah feeling a tingling in meh crotch. Meh eh eh aging like a rust out Brillo pad, everything closing down, if only ah had to wee wee, I'll have nutting dere. Sometimes at night I does go into a sweat and meh body, praise the lawd does wicked meh mind and any ting ah find long, I does use, like meh cassava pestle, I does go for it and oil it up with petroleum jelly to clear the cobweb. And you yuhself tief meh Sweat Rice recipe.

After I scrub de pots wit a Brillo, I say, wait nah, dis pad resemble meh nanny.

God says Magnificat - The Last Supper

The Last Supper rendition

Next to nothing, the power of imagination can rinse the superstition of Greatness. This work says it. Its novel un pretentious and composed with intense accuracy, nobody as to ring true. Forgive the gloat, its truly marvelous.

Addendum: Judas, "Sorry, I'is late fellas, I had business to attend to, ah hope yeh leave back some wine for meh"

Jacqueline's black eye

Feinin-Hermes - Jacqueline's coiffure. She tells her hair dresser, "I make no apologies over the mistakes in my life"

Charlize, child, he was in a rage, ah forget to add a Maggi block, (yuh have any?) in de cook yesterday and went Mister reach home from work from de next room, he raise he hand towards meh and hit meh hard. Is dark shades ah have to wear. Is dis Cuba ting have he so, or is Marilyn wit she stinking ways. Ah better add two Maggi bouillon oui to meh pot to keep meh President. Meh pot ain't sweet without it and Marilyn ain't known meh Julius Maggi secret.


A national portrait of Jacqueline Kennedy - Feinin-Hermes

I took what I could get. Its chicken feed to others, but roast beef to me. Sorry for the time. We are so over it. A child left alone, a legacy in arms way of ruin. Sadly, I sleep...

Charlie Chaplin knows my Addiction

Feinin-Hermes' classic advertising of Coca Cola

Its amazes me what thoughts bring. Its beautiful to be remembered. I like to treasure my past. It certainly brought joy to many individuals in my life, like you Sir. History, the ability to remember moments. Laughter comes at best. My jacket pocket needs a flower to spurt water on you and my shirt needs ironing. Giggle


Can't beat the real thing, I wonder if they still use the Coca leaves?

Yes...its all mine, only if I sleep

Feinin-Hermes Atlas - A World too small for two

All this time you've been pondering over what it means to "Own the World if he wants". I gather soon it will stay part of you in fractions of time. The ability to think appeals to those who lack. Changing nothing is always risky. It's nice to see the event unfold. One wonders if really God has pretended. He's never here when I seek him. Perhaps I not here either. A ghost maybe?

Feinin looked, he say his image everywhere. It was impossible to think that in two weeks, his wrting would create a wonderful lesson.

Oh Schiller let me shed my tears

Feinin-Hermes as Zephyrus, God of the west wind

Never create an image of yourself flying as an angel. It says something about your will. Courage is the master indeed given the stakes in life. Wisdom follows a trait too. Rejoice, give me my temperance to dream. Searching is not what you seek. Beauty is as an opal. Lover rejoice if money can change you, then it shall indeed. Sweet opal lessons to teach, solitude, forgiveness, age procreation of time. I see whats wrong, I see over the horizon, Amen

The next time I'll promise to speak, I know I've censored you because your tongue is not of mine. Please bear with me

God show my past so I may see my future

Feinin-Hermes "The Judgement of Paris", Peter Paul Rubens, c 1636

Childish, its him alright posing as three nymphs exposing their breasts upon an audience of millions. It is the Judgement of Paris, interpreted sweetly in the faces of you. Beauty, madness and coy temptation. Hermes is luring them with a shell just found in the earth. Its not the shell they want, its the wanton desire for more attention...

"God, its been rough this past days, I've been working on my thesis. You've given me a dream to follow. Schiller wants it too. I hear that the devil writes words so to speak. He's a trickster counting his dough. I can reason over the fact that words contain power. They are used in sentences and begin to seep into the mystical language of you. You are compelled to obey, I can't understand it, but its parts of the many gifts inside words that plays a tune. The gift of thought is protected by the use of meaning, Schiller asked. God, may I ask of you what words make you happy? Solitude, obedience, destiny, painter, future"

Addendum: Greek Myth-Judgement of Paris: Hermes bringing to Alexander the son of Priam the goddesses of whose beauty he is to judge, the inscription on them being: 'Here is Hermes, who is showing to Alexander, that he may arbitrate concerning their beauty, Hera, Athena and Aphrodite.